A Day in My Life (and in His Word)

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Audio:  https://youtu.be/wOtDEeGvcB8?si=--5bpN3ExifKxY2x


As soon as I open my eyes, before the thoughts rush in, I choose the first one: God.

His Word. His goodness. His mighty works. That is my first anchor of the day.


Then it is downstairs for coffee, my morning ritual. But it is not just the caffeine I look forward to. It is the quiet conversation with my best friend, my husband. We talk about the usual things: life, plans, and the little things. But more often than not, we end up back where our hearts are most alive, discussing the Bible, what God has been showing us, how good He is, and questions I may have about the Bible. I love those talks.


Soon, our son is up and getting ready for school. After we send him off, the house grows quiet.

That is when I open the Word.


Sometimes I read. Most days, I listen to the audio Bible. I stop when something is unclear and read until the context sinks in. And then there it is: the gold nugget. A verse, a phrase, a word, a principle that glows. I stop reading to study and look at other verses in the same context.


What comes next is the longest and most transforming part of my day: rumination (meditation) on the golden nugget.


What is rumination? According to Webster’s 1828 Dictionary:

It is the musing or continued thinking on a subject; deliberate meditation or reflection.


That is the key: continued thinking.


As long as I have the strength to think, I choose to think on this.


This is what broke the cycle.

This is what healed the years of destructive rumination I once could not escape.


Why is it so transforming? Because meditation on the Word is the key to obedience.

“This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do…”

Joshua 1:8


That part: “that thou mayest observe to do.”

Not just think. Do.


After my husband returns from school drop-off, we sit together, read the Bible, and pray. Then he heads off to work, and I am left with a gift: a wide-open day.


Sure, there are chores, errands, and responsibilities just like anyone else. But even in the ordinary, I have two options:

Let my mind run wild or anchor it in truth.


Lately, I have been choosing the anchor. And it has been so well with my soul.


Sometimes the Lord gives me an opportunity to apply what I have meditated on. One day I was meditating on the word meekness. Would you not know, a situation came that made me want to do the exact opposite. Right in the middle of the tension, instead of reacting, I started defining meekness in my head. That simple shift, meditating instead of reacting, changed everything.


The situation passed. I did not even see exactly how it resolved. But I saw God. I saw Him moving in my heart and someone else’s heart. In that moment, I knew Him more. I trusted Him more.


And then I do it again.

And again.

And again.


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